Pondering the Pavement

February 27, 2014

Don’t Be Afraid of the Dark

I have been very blessed, right from the official beginning, to have a strong association with my Spirit Guides that is sparklingly crystal clear. Their personalities, like mine, are overwhelmingly strong, loud and undeniable. Ignoring them is just not a comfortable option. They command my attention when they have the need to speak. It greatly reminds me of a small child tugging on their father’s shirt sleeve repeating, “Dad! Dad! Dad! Dad!” over and over and over. No matter what dear old dad is doing he eventually has to give in and scream, “WHAT?” When they request my undivided attention I have little to no choice but share their insight with others. I hope you’re willing to listen…


Image“The mouth of a cave looms ahead, a gaping void along the side of a mountain of stone. It is monstrous in size, overwhelming to the visual senses. Ignoring its existence is futile, pointless. What steps do you take? You know not what awaits within its darkened walls. Other options are at your disposal, of course. You may walk around the expanding mountain range, searching for an easier approach. But what of its duration? Many cycles of sun and moon may, or may not, pass by prior to completion. You just do not know.

“You may wish to return from hence you came. Can you envision going back to where, and who, you were prior to this journey? Does this settle well and earnestly within?

“There is always the simplistic choice of merely staying where you are at this very moment. Contemplate the realization that this could be where you will forever take root. Look about you—is this where you will find nourishment? Contentment? True Peace? Eternal Knowledge? Is THIS all you require for your physical incarnation, happiness, fulfillment?

“Stepping in the cavern of the unknown does not require courage, despite what you may think you want to believe. It simply requires faith—within and throughout—in yourself as well as whoever, whatever, you KNOW your Creator to Be. Step into the cave, Little One. And explore!

“You are far more aware, on a deeper soul level, that the mouth of the cave is presented for a reason. Worry not about the “why”. Accept that there IS a “why” and it will be revealed—perhaps—at a future time.

“Do not toss aside precious, fleeting moments “finding” the courage to go within, Little One. There is no need for you ARE courage! Just as you ARE Love! Just as you ARE Light! Just as you ARE evidence of God’s Own Divine Presence!

“The darkness will build around you as you dare to explore deeper within. The light in which you started will dissipate until it has faded from conscious view. And then what? Human instinct will bring fear to the forefront. You are lost, you fear. You are alone, abandoned. There is no hope in sight!

“But wait…are you not standing? You cannot see the cavern floor beneath you, but you FEEL it, do you not? Reach beyond yourself in order to feel the walls surrounding you. You are NOT encircled by nothingness. Are you of the unknowing mind that clings to the limitation of only seeing is believing? Travel beyond your limited senses, mindsets and crippling assumptions. See what is unseen. Live what seems unlivable. Allow the unknowing to remind you that acceptance does not require any knowledge.

“Take advantage of the darkness. Use this time to continually explore within. All the while accepting that the lack of surrounding light does not diminish the brightest of light that is your soul, your spirit, your being, your Creator within and throughout!”

—The One Who Soars with Eagles

Copyright © 2014, Charles A. Filius 

February 7, 2014

Channeled on the Carpet

Image“Don’t be afraid to hear your own mind.”

My brow furrowed as I looked at the words scrawled on the paper before me. Both my head and hand tilted to the right like Nipper, the RCA Victor dog. “That can’t be right,” I thought. I took a deep breath and said, “Don’t you mean SPEAK your own mind?” All I received in return was the raising of an ethereal eyebrow. It’s amazing, isn’t it? After all of these years I still question Robert. I like to think he admires my naturally inquisitive nature. Whoops. There goes that eyebrow again.

After a few moments, as if Robert was collecting his thoughts or counting to ten in order to refrain from slapping me in the back of the head, my pen-wielding hand dashed across the paper once more.

“If it is within your mind there IS a reason. There IS an origin. And it IS yours. Own it fully. Is it there to enhance? Is it there to educate, motivate, create or appreciate? Or is it merely caulking for a leaky, worn tub? Is it mental gibberish enabling your lack of focus? Does it hinder or heighten your life’s path?”

And Robert gets peeved when I ask him questions? Then, correctly on cue, he delivered the truth right between the eyes: “Are your thoughts necessary or merely an excuse?”

Well, there’s a question for the ages.

“Your thoughts can rule as well as be ruled. Like any skill, it requires time, true desire and total dedication. Only you can direct the flow of your own thoughts. You cannot rely on Spirit to do this for you. What purpose, other than catering to your own laziness, would that serve? You are made aware of Spirit within your life in order to face physical challenges, trouble-free as well as taxing. Your freewill is not only the deciding factor but the action as well. It really is up to you. We merely shine the light, but it is “soul-ly” your option to observe.

“If you wish to clear the mind, cleanse the awareness of your Spirit, then sharpen your focus, your connection, as you would a blade… by keeping it to the grindstone! Work at it—with it—daily, not once-in-a-while or whenever the mood strikes. What if you exercised your body only when you felt like it? Can you imagine eating or bathing on the occasional whim? Why is it that you can easily set aside hours at a time to watch a series of television programs, to skim a magazine, or to catch the big game, but you will not take the required moments to connect with Spirit? I refer to not just Us, you know? I refer to You as well! Is a scoreboard more significant than keeping a tally of your own self-sight?

“Mock reality, whether presented to you or thrown at you, is truly nothing when it comes to your very own reality. Do not watch it—live it, own it, be it—for it IS yours. Why? Because it IS you!

“Again, do not be afraid to listen to the sound of your own mind. It will unquestionably reveal the truth within.”

There was a pause—an unspoken ‘think about that’ moment. Then Robert’s trademark, “I am done” echoed throughout the room and he was gone. My head jerked back with an exaggerated blink, the pen fell from my hand and rolled a couple of inches down the page. I exhaled heavily, as if I had been holding my breath, and I sat back in my chair. When Robert lectures me I often feel like I’ve been grounded and my allowance has been taken away.

But, of course, he was right. Distractions have been plentiful lately, to say the least. Admittedly, my birthday is always a season for such unfocused obsessions. I allow my mind to romp and frolic in the neighbor’s yard giving absolutely no regard to the clearly posted KEEP OFF THE LAWN signs encased in rusty barbwire. One becomes illiterate when pandering to such notions.

I’m a control freak. I am the first to admit it. Robert’s eloquent knee-to-the-gut made me realize my craving of control does extend beyond what I’ve thought…literally. One’s thoughts can be organized and managed once you admit to WHY they are there in the first place. I can honestly say mine are there in order to keep from facing the next step, the ascending rung on the ladder. In the past I have often reflected on what I have not done, where I have not gone and other succulent shortcomings. Why am I convinced that introspection has to be negative? What about examining what I have done, where I have gone and, more excitedly, what I will do?

Listen to the thoughts within your own mind and, more importantly, give the one who put ‘em there some respect. I’m gonna give it a shot and I urge you to do the same.

Copyright © 2014, Charles A. Filius

February 6, 2014

A View Anew

Filed under: mediumship,spirituality — cfilius @ 9:37 pm

A View Anew

“When a person can no longer laugh at himself,
it is time for others to laugh at him.”

― Thomas Stephen Szasz
I am always discovering something new in this work. It is honestly a never-ending tapestry woven with sometimes seemingly random threads. Odd color schemes, off the wall patterns, you name it. Yet, in the end, a beautiful image will reveal itself. The speed of the viewing goes directly hand-in-hand with my perception, of course. Like everyone, I will get caught up in the day-to-day choreography of life without taking notice of what is going on around, and especially, within me. That’s usually when I fall flat on my face, as the revealing self portrait above can attest. My unmindful grace, spiritually and physically, can really only be compared to a herd of bulls in the midst of the worst bovine hiccup epidemic known to man while in a Faberge Egg museum during an earthquake. Twice. With my scattered thought patterns I am often bewildered on how I can actually do this work. Sure, I can talk to your deceased grandmother but, as of this writing, I haven’t a clue where my keys are nestled.  Once I pick myself up off the pavement, piece by humiliated piece, I will review my own perspective. I don’t make myself see things differently. Instead, I do my best to realize what IS. After all, it’s my diverse outlook that caused the asphalt belly-flop in the first place. I rarely understand it right off the bat. But I take note and store it in the well-worn library in my head for a later epiphany.Yea, my self-perception is often different from how others, here and there, see it.

What I have been fascinated to discover is that the being in spirit that I connect with in a session will often times have a self-perception that greatly differs from the thoughts and/or memories of the sitter. Parents who feel they weren’t there enough for their children while the child was perfectly content with them growing up. The spouse who wasn’t as loving as he or she thought they should be while the one left behind couldn’t have been happier. Over time I have realized that these differing views do not stem from an unhappy life or a self-deprecating existence. It comes from a heightened perspective in spirit of the truly limitless capacity of the spiritual heart. We can love until there is no tomorrow. Guaranteed. But, as I stated, getting caught up in the choreography of life momentarily distracts us. When I am told “I could have loved more” I see it not as a self-imposed fault but as a reminder to the sitter, “Love with every vibration of your being!” And, of course, pass it on.

Right now I would LOVE to know where those keys are…

Copyright © 2014, Charles A. Filius

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